I should be so lucky

Tonight is the first night for a while since I've just stayed at home alone, and here I am...my thoughts trailing...thinking of you.

I know I've been unfair to have expectations of you and I know you find it very difficult to express it in words or gestures. Sometimes I've been too demanding but you've never given up no matter what. I really appreciate that. I love the dark chocolate you brought downstairs for me, I love that you remember how to please me when I'm all stressed, I love looking at your sheepish smile and I love......the rest is censored hahaha! Seriously though, I love that there's never a dull moment when you're around. I love that you are so shamelessly funny. I love that you read me like a book in and out, that you're super understanding by nature, sensitive to my feelings and needs, consistently spoil me rotten, give in to me so much more than you ever need to, but do so just because. You're sucha sweetie you melt me every single time, you're smart, independent, passionate, ambitious, warm, sincere, easygoing, confident, a go-getter, genuine and the best bit? I love everything there is around you babe.

I've always been amazed at how you've never had any expectations of me. Unlike some of those unnecessary and unspoken expectations, like how tons of over achievers take heaps of pride in their successes and how they expect others to be achievers as well, just so that they can uphold that pride when they go out and meet each other's friends. It's akin to a trophy thing, or to be that social butterfly so that it feels good to be with other popular people, thriving on the popularity and useful attributes of others. That's so tried.

This is precisely why despite all that you are and all that you have and all that you've got, yet you are simply the babe next door. You've given me entirely yourself without any expectations, and no conditions attached. Sometimes I still find it quite hard to fathom. That's also the sole reason I need periodic assurances, just to make sure that you know you've made the right decision. Sometimes it's also to make sure that you are real.

So, thank you :) lucky duck!