A Life in Black and White

am not your usual lady in the neighbourhood. i could be fun-loving and ambitions blazing, yet chilling with a good book in hand. loves audrey hepburn movies, lemon-lime-&-bitters, vintage anything and furniture. am not one effortlessly impressed. i see my goals, my dreams and the enjoyment would lie not merely in the success at the end of the road but in this journey of life. livin` it, lovin` it, keepin` it real. i travel alone, i travel light, in my 20`s - la vie est belle!

mercredi, mars 30, 2005

worn

Been blog surfing. The usual bit. All the people whom I've been missing out on.

Blogerator's partner. Old friends. New ones.

Feeling stretched mainly due to job-related issues. I feel as though every path is blocked and I'm forced to make constant u-turns.

Truly holding up for my holidays...and the coming fair with Elin...

Glad I have my support blanket around me. Thanks heaps!

Let's see, what have I been up to?

1. Work
2. Gossip
3. Missing out on social life
4. Tons on my mind
5. Much to say but truly lack of time

"Sigh. Such is life."

vendredi, mars 25, 2005

Over and over again.

Dearest JD,

Work wise, all I can say is chin up! This is only temporary. And there's only a couple more weeks at IB. Hang tight.

I recently had a discussion with one of my close friends on the topic of finding Mr. Right. And I think she made a very good point - i.e. We have to live with the fact that there would always be a better or lesser person out there in this world. And sometimes this better person comes along after we get married. The question actually lies within ourselves as to whether we want to commit with the person we've chosen and work towards long-term goals. Probably that is the essence of a relationship....it's like a partnership. And once you get married, there isn't an "OUT" because the exchange of vows is also a promise to each other to stop looking - so it cuts out other possibilities of finding the 'better' person.

I think I'm also a hopeless romantic. But the rational side of me also tells me that passion and romance actually wanes over time. So we should choose someone whom we are compatible with for other reasons than love.

Personally, I think you can never forget XX...the feelings for him would fade over time but the memories would forever remain - even after you find Mr. Right. Anyway, I will e-mail again soon....maybe we should have a good chat sometime soon. Almost 5 and everyone's leaving work already.

Take care, M

dimanche, mars 20, 2005

and so it is...

Welcome to the age of un-innocence. No one has breakfast at Tiffany's, and no one has affairs to remember. Instead, we have breakfast at 7AM, and affairs we try to forget as quickly as possible. Self-protection and closing the deal are paramount. Cupid has flown the co-op.

"How the hell did we get into this mess?"

And so we meet Carrie Bradshaw, lifestyle columnist and seemingly cynical single woman. Carrie writes a column called "Sex and the City" for THE NEW YORK STAR. She's New York's relationship expert, even if she does have more questions than answers. Carrie gets material for her column from the romantic troubles of her close friends, each of whom we meet over the course of this episode. We hear her male friends (a.k.a. toxic bachelors) espouse the virtues of "the mid-thirties power flip" and dating for fun, not marriage. We hear her female friends--including Miranda Hobbes Esq., corporate lawyer and Charlotte York, art dealer--discuss the merits of "playing by the rules." It's obvious from the start that the men and women in the city aren't on the same page.

At Miranda's thirtysomething birthday party, Carrie and her friends--Miranda, Charlotte and "New York inspiration" Samantha Jones (a public relations exec who routinely beds sexy, twentysomething men)--vow to stop worrying about finding the perfect male and start having sex like men, "without feeling." At first, Charlotte is shocked that the group is so ready to give up on love. Carrie, meanwhile, promises that when the right guy comes along, they'll all change their tune. Later, Carrie decides to "experiment" with an old flame and meets the enigmatically handsome Mr. Big on the way home.

Later, Carrie helps out her friend, Skipper Johnston, by introducing him to Miranda at Chaos. Although their initial conversation is awkward, Miranda warms up to his general niceness. Meanwhile, Charlotte hits the town with "most eligible bachelor" candidate Truman Capote, but refuses to sleep with him when the date is through. Samantha, however, feels differently. After being rejected by Mr. Big, she falls into the lusty arms of Mr. Capote.

Carrie runs into Mr. Big one last time on her way home. They talk about sex without emotion, as Big gives her a lift in his limo. He's unphased by her jaded attitude when it comes to relationships.

"I get it," Big states. "You've never been in love..."


FINALLY...The end...

And Carrie with her head bowed down whispered into the mouthpiece of the Parisian public phone, "Why do I always do this to me? When someone new comes into my life, I always think of Big."

"I'm the Charlotte in dressing, and the Carrie in heart."

vendredi, mars 18, 2005

a handful of ice cubes

Strength
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I signed up for the JP Morgan Chase Run!


My muse
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I read, I reflected, I'm inspired. I'm won.

It was one of the gambles in my life. I cut you loose MT, the "what-it-could-have-been-s"... all of it ain't important anymore.


Renewed faith
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You might not know it one bit but you brought me a step closer to Him.


"A poker hand, yet to see if I've won though. Truth be told, not entirely impossible, but who gets a full house these days?"

dimanche, mars 13, 2005

Taipei Memento

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Scenic sakura

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Courtesy of mon petit frère...

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"How would it be," I deliberate. Don't geddit. The interest. The probing. The 1,001 whys. The 1,001 hows. The 1,001 whos. The 1,001 whats.

This merely makes for musing, opinionated reading. Then again, ironically, that spells the perverse human nature.

Hereon goes, the intriguing life of Miss J Doe.

samedi, mars 12, 2005

ze blues

Thanks Elin!!

Putting me in my place, and strolling down the path, I'm edging towards the light.

There's nothing like friendship.

jagged lil pill

After what seems like long-lost age, it hit me. Strong powerful pill, that's what it does to anyone. Finally stumbled onto MT's page. 6 hours flash by like a blink when you're fast asleep and uncannily it can be an eternity if you're trying to sleep. MT's words running around in my mind, threading my thoughts along. I marvel at how life goes depends on choices. How different choices turn out so very varied. Flashbacks...

"I had to admit, while I was exhilarated with the prospects and possibilities in store, I was just as afraid of them. There is a certain feeling of safety in familiarity, even if your existence was less than satisfactory at the time. I felt naked, vulnerable, even though this could have well been the safest place I’d been in a while. You couldn’t help but laugh at the irony of it all I suppose; I know I had to suppress a chuckle."

A chuckle. And the crystal squirrel. My mind has again found itself wandering far away. Those who know the feeling would agree that it’s the best and the worst feeling in the world.

"God please grant me the humility to accept the things I can’t change, the courage to change the things that I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. "

hit it on margaritas

I'm in the midst of a team whereby 2 are homesick, and the overall morale is just a tad low. How can one motivate staff? 6 weeks counting down...

Felt a wave of happiness sweep past me. When I saw pinkies' wedding pics, I could so feel her sense of bliss. And I'm more than happy for her. :) I miss MO and my dear dear gfs...

"To see a world in a grain of sand and heaven in a wild flower, To hold Infinity in the palm of your hand, and Eternity in an hour."

dimanche, mars 06, 2005

mellow sunset

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It's done.

Went up to City Space for drinks with my loved ones...1 lychee martini down - that did the trick, see, this is what happens when one stops going to Velvet...anyways, loved that place...music was fabulous as always, and spinning down to the ladies reminded me of Hotel Costes. :) Pity no pics to post, was way too dark! City Space...put me into a sofa seat facing the lovely lights and really, I can just sit there for eternity...

Moving on, Hitch was a brilliant film...

"Life is not about every breathing moment, but about every moment that takes one's breath away"

jeudi, mars 03, 2005

sway

Great. My laptop died on me today. Really, and the IT Dept is such a pain! 24 hours to fix it?

I think I need to manage my stress. Let's see, I'm accustomed to planning holidays during the peak period coz it simply makes stressful days easier to get through. :)

1. A trip to New York New York...Soho, Broadway, Empire State, Shopping, Manhattan...OOH!

2. Make that trip 1 month. And throw in a Carribean cruise.

3. Go back to Funk class.

4. Finish up my art.

5. Read.

6. Breathe.

7. Smile to those who are happy.

8. Breathe.

9. Catch all my fav films again.

10. Can't wait for my holiday in April. ;)

mardi, mars 01, 2005

H20

Something's really wrong when the water at work doesn't even taste right. Apparently, it's alkaline water. Anyone had a taste of alkaline water before? Weird.

Sunday was good. Relaxing! :)



And yea, just got a haircut...refreshing I must say. I like!



Finally...

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Cheerios to a good week! I need a shot of vodka bitter lemon...