stuff that dreams are made up of

I couldn't sleep last night. Was zombified till 4am. Don't know why. My lil piece of haven thinks it's crazy. Sure is. Now babe, what would I do without you?

I had a dream last night. First one in eons. Best part, I can hardly remember a thing. That scares me. Whenever I have dreams like these, they always come true in time.

Appraisal time's coming up in July. I'm not as worried as I'd imagined I would be. Granted I already have an idea what would be said. Well, I can't complain, everything has been going well...things have unexpectedly simply fallen into place. That's a good thing. Yet it's hard to buy the story even though, I've always been told by strangers alike that I'll have a blessed and prosperous life. I count my blessings everyday. I live it up, I live it right.

There's so much pain going on around me. So many broken relationships. The foggy mist surrounding it all will clear soon. My heart aches for the ones I care so much about. Every tear, every frown. What is this "va-va-vroom"? Do you believe in it? The perfect guy with 1:1 ratio of va-va-vroom and good guy qualities?

Are there still 3 two-year block periods to find that One? I think not, unless of course getting married is unimportant and having kids is not a priority. Is it better to stay single than to settle for less? Or how about settling for someone just short of a tiny bit right now? Is there the luxury of time and choices alike to make the correct decision at this point in time? If one holds on to someone just short of a tiny bit, do we want to give it up in search of someone better or do we hold on to the one short of a tiny bit, just in case? Yet, it's not entirely fair when one knows that there's a high possiblity that marriage will not proceed if someone better comes along.

A thought, what if the One doesn't exist for some?

And so this pressing question remains, what is your own comfortable balance of factors? Perhaps mine would eventually be a stabilised ratio of 1:2. I value the va-va-vroom less. That's so hard to find. But I don't stop. I'm twirling around. I have found my higher end of the ratio.

To my posse, I hope you guys find yours.